I handed him a different one.
He left.

Hmm…

For thirty minutes, I spiraled.
(Pretty sure only women understand this.)

Anyway, I thought — nope.
Not bottling this one up.

So I fired off a text:
"Who's going to think that?
Who are we even hiding from?
What do you mean, 'some woman'?"

Something along those lines.

Predictably… a quarrel:

— I’m sick of your crazy texts out of nowhere!
— And I… I’m really fed up with your secrets!

So once again we say goodbye forever.

— Stay well!
— Same to you!

Deep breath.
Exhale.

A few hours later… again:

— Why are you acting like a child?
— Because… (all the emotions I let pile up for a while…)

No, seriously —
don’t let things accumulate.
Speak it right away,
So you won’t blame yourself later
For making just a tiny molehill
out of a whole mountain.

**Scientific Footnote
Entropy & Communication

In thermodynamics, disorder grows without energy.
In relationships, resentment grows without words.

Unspoken words increase disorder until the system collapses.

Speaking up is the energy that restores balance.

Don’t shrink your mountain.
Don’t amplify yours entropy. 💪😜

For months, I tried to calculate it.
To define it.
To extract it logically.

But at some point I realized something simple: it’s useless to search for that answer with the mind.

Inside the mind lives only the database I’ve already built.
And that database does not contain the experience of selling what I create now.

If I were selling diapers or concrete mixers, the answer would be obvious.
But when you are sharing reflections, structures, ways of seeing — how can you predict who will resonate?

So the real question became different: How do you turn fear and uncertainty into strategy? How do you turn barriers into advantages?

Right now, I follow two principles.

1. Move by Resonance

I don’t feel like hunting for market niches.
I want to create my own thing, my own product.
Not invent, but rather allow something to emerge — something that unfolds from within by itself. Like the way a snowflake forms.

I move by feeling.
When there’s flow and energy, when ideas start appearing — I follow that direction.

It’s a simple chain: idea → impulse → realization.
Yes, along the way technical obstacles appear, and to overcome them I need to learn new skills. But that’s fine. They’re not really “problems” — just tasks that need to be solved.

When ideas stop coming, I rest.
Or I turn.
Like a plant that hits a wall and simply continues growing in a different direction.

2. Shameless Sharing

One day I heard this phrase: “Shamelessly promote yourself.”

At first, it scared me. I’m quite shy when it comes to self-promotion. I don’t have ready-made words for it. I don’t really know how self-advertising is done.

But one thing became crystal clear to me: if, for example, you're a hairdresser, at the very least, the people in your neighborhood should know that you cut hair. Start with even just a few clients. Only by actually doing it will you begin to understand which kinds of cuts you're best at: children's, men's, or women's.

Now I think that at the very beginning, when you still don’t really understand who your target audience is, there’s only one honest strategy: visibility.

If you don’t know who your people are yet, your task is simple — let as many people as possible find out that you exist.

It’s useless to try to invent everything with your mind.
It’s useful to move, do the work, and observe what works and what doesn’t.

My winter journal was born on February 12th.

I don’t know exactly who my “ideal reader” is. And I stopped trying to guess. I am simply sending it into the world.

Clarity doesn’t appear at once.
It unfolds as you move.

Code De Core

I adopted the tool and began building my own ecosystem of knowledge: a mix of bio, neuro, quantum, crypto, and “flowers”, by which I mean the genius of natural design.

Over the last ten years, as I navigated various crises and deep self-exploration, I’ve accumulated more than five thousand notes, stories, poems, and voice recordings.

It was my private attempt to assemble a coherent picture of the world. For a long time, this world lived only as a complex web of files within Obsidian. I wanted to take that “invisible” architecture and make it visible — something you could actually see and feel.

The idea for a journal had been brewing for a long time, and now... it’s finally here.

Code De Core (Winter 2026) is the first manifestation of that archive.

Winter Issue

This is not about winter as a season.

It’s about a state you enter when everything slows down and the conditions under which clarity appears.

Winter was chosen intentionally, because in winter movement slows down, the unnecessary falls away, and what truly holds becomes easier to see.

Through snowflakes, geometry, physics, perception, and lived experience, the Winter issue follows one thread: how something fragile can remain stable, how uniqueness unfolds under one law, and how a person can find the point that does not tremble.

What This Issue Explores

• Perception and the blind spots of our own nature
• Uniqueness under a shared structural law
• Winter as a state of inner alignment
• How form settles and becomes visible
• The center that remains while states change
• The home carried within

The Core Thread

In every unique snowflake, we see the same natural law at work. Each form is different, yet each unfolds within a shared underlying order.

In this journal, winter is approached not simply as a season, but as a condition of attention. It is a state in which movement slows and structure becomes easier to perceive. As activity softens, form comes into focus and patterns begin to reveal themselves.

What once seemed like scattered fragments can gradually be seen as part of a larger whole. Through this shift in perception, it becomes possible to recognize that stability and coherence are not something to construct from scratch; they are already present, waiting to be understood and allowed to settle into clarity.

Code De Core is out now. I invite you to step inside.

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And only then does the question arise: what is clarity, really?

Because clarity is not the same as understanding.

Understanding belongs to the mind. Something can be explained and make sense intellectually, while inside nothing truly clarifies.

A surface can be cleaned and become clean, but cleanliness is not yet clarity.

Clarity is a different quality of perception. It does not appear instantly, and it cannot be given from the outside.

Without this theme, the work would feel incomplete.
This is where the question of uniqueness begins to resolve.

A person can be tested, analyzed, described in detail.
Abilities can be mapped out, directions suggested.
All of it may sound convincing, and still inner clarity does not arise.

Seeing One’s Own Pattern

Clarity does not arrive through explanations or someone else’s words. It forms only through your own lived experience.

It requires time.

It requires distance.

It emerges through long observation of oneself across repeating life cycles.

Day by day, patterns begin to appear.

You notice how you live, what you repeat automatically, and why.

You begin to see which actions persist, which attempts at change quietly fail, and which ways of acting feel impossible not because of fear or laziness, but because they do not correspond to your form.

The same becomes evident in work and creative processes.

Some activities generate energy and a sense of aliveness.
Others bring tension and inner resistance.

At first, this feels like moving in circles, often circles of stress.

Over time, it becomes clear that what slows movement is a particular part of the personality, caught in dissatisfaction and resistance.

The observer, however, remains calm and impartial, simply watching these movements and quietly pointing to the mind: notice this.

Here, energy appears on its own, without effort. Remember this state.

Gradually, self-recognition becomes bodily.

You begin to feel where movement is light and where it requires strain.
Where energy flows freely, ideas begin to grow.

Possibilities open.

Aspects of yourself that were previously unseen start to appear, like new rays of a snowflake.

This is not movement toward a goal, and not an attempt to become someone else. It is the gradual unfolding of one’s own form.

As observation continues, clarity does not arrive as an answer, but as recognition.

And with each returning cycle, it becomes easier to sense what is truly alive, and what can be left behind.

Lighter → Light → Darker → Dark →
Lighter → Light → Darker → Dark...

Day before → Yesterday → Today → Tomorrow → Day after → and my Today will soon be Day before.

Imagine no calendar, no clock,
no measure of time — only this:
when morning lightens,

clarify your moment

a little more than yesterday’s.

Your direction reveals itself from within.

You don’t have to choose it.
You simply recognize it.

📌 Winter here is not a season, but a state in which the supporting structure becomes visible.

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If this feels familiar

When You Know What to Do but Cannot Do It
(enter 2432026)

“Birds,” I say.

“Birds?”

“Birds might peck at your gum, eat it, and die. Or maybe it stuck to my car?”

“No way—it flew far away.”

“Where did it land?”

“How should I know?”

“Well, once you study physics, you’ll find out. Physics is all about that—how things move and what forces act on them. You’ll know exactly which forces worked on your gum and where it ended up.”

(And to myself I wonder: Could any physicist on Earth actually calculate its exact landing spot?)

“Got it. And chemistry?”

“Chemistry is about what things are made of. Take your gum, for example. What’s in it, what you can add to make it tasty but safe, and chewy enough to last… What happens if you heat it or blow a bubble?”

“What happens if you heat it?”

“I don’t know—I’ve never tried.”

“We should. If you blow, you get a bubble.”

“And why does it pop?”

“Dunno… Maybe there wasn’t enough gum? Or maybe you blew too hard?”

“That’s physics already,” I laugh. (Though maybe it’s chemistry too?)

“What if you swallow it—will you get poisoned?”

“No, gum won’t poison you.”

“But what happens if you do?”

“Nothing much—it just passes through undigested. But that’s anatomy and physiology. Do you have anatomy next year?”

“Nope…”

I just don’t understand why all knowledge is chopped into such tiny fragments that nothing makes sense anymore. Not a single process—whole and complete. How can anyone learn if you never see why it matters?

Pieces, fragments… That’s how we live—scattered, reassembling, always incomplete.

“In life, people periodically fall apart into pieces, then gather themselves again, forming a new picture. I don’t know what kind of picture I am—I’m always in pieces. Sometimes they’re bigger, and then I feel better, as if some kind of harmonious clarity is about to arrive.”

(Elchin Safarli, They Promised You to Me)

How I long to bring together everything science knows today—about life, matter, consciousness, mind, three-dimensional space, multidimensionality, and what may come after death—just to form some coherent picture of our universe for myself.

So I wouldn’t have to wander among scattered fragments, sifting for grains of truth, or drown in tangled explanations, straining to uncover the essence buried in dense, impenetrable articles that my mind can barely grasp.

Sadly, a clear and unified vision of the world remains nothing but a dream… for now.

The cosmos is only an hour away — if your car could drive straight up.

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